Almost 4 months since I've written an entry here, and I feel a little bit bad about that! Stanmore was an adventure and I did manage to blog it all! The link I'd in the post before this, I think it still works! After Stanmore there was my almost two month long struggle with flu as well as some laziness on my part (no denying that!) and work related stress thanks to me being off sick for almost a year!
My interest in World of Warcraft has dwindled somewhat, after levelling a Paladin to 85. I've moved toward the books and comics now as I love the lore and the stories, but I can't be assed to play it anymore! Which reminds me, I need to see if there are kindle versions of the novels that I can read on my iPad (as my hands are still getting worse and I can't cope with books anymore) Speaking of reading, I also need to do more of that, too!
Well, that's me practically up to date. There's a new Pokémon game out on the DS that I'm currently playing through (well, trying, as my DSi XL is busted and has a lose cartridge slot) I also have Rune Factory 2 and Secret Window on the DS and a BOATLOAD of games on Steam to play. I might look into getting a new XL, because I love the size of it and I can't cope with the smaller ones anymore; plus I'm not that interested in the 3DS due to it's gimmick and price tag.
Over the last few months, I've come to talk to a wide variety of people of people on Twitter and all of them are amazing. Most of them have conditions similar to mine, or share a similar (twisted) mindset. I am grateful for finding all these people (or them finding me) as there's a huge bank of knowledge and experience and help there. Even just to have a friendly chat and a mess about, it's welcoming.
Myriam, like me, is having difficulties with her hands lately and I'm finding it really saddening. She's limited herself to an hour or there abouts online, which means I don't get as much time to talk to her as I want to. However, I've bought her the new Mac OS, so she can use FaceTime to call me so we can talk rather than type (AIM is crap for that) plus then she can call my iPhone and we can FaceTime over that, too. I really miss her and I feel that part of me is slipping away the less I talk to her, so I don't mind sending her $35 if it means we can talk more.
Going back to my health and such junk, I've been building muscle, but I haven't managed to lose any weight somehow, which I really can't understand. Life at the moment is frustrating and hard, even though I'm not working, it's almost become a joke trying to do certain things and I feel ashamed to have to ask for help. No one should have to ask for help to get out of a chair or to make simple food (like a sandwich). I've even moved back to two crutches, as it's easier for me to balance when I have to go anywhere.
As for my madness, I attend a group therapy session. It's art based so I get to draw and paint ("paint what you feel") and I'm not judged so it's really calm and relaxing, until the loud people start to get louder that is! I'm a loud "confident" person, according to most people, but I'm not really. Deep down I'm just a girl guy who would rather deflect attention somewhere else, especially because I hate being with people. I get panicky and anxious, so I get "confident" and loud to cover it up. I hate it, because it's not me.
Anyway, I think I've ranted enough for another four months or so, so I'll leave it here! The things I write at 2am, eh?
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