Over a Week!

Wow, it's been over a week since I last blogged, I can't believe it! Looks like a massive update is on the way, or several. I'm going to follow this one with a rant, just as a warning!

I'm still off sick, I'm two weeks in now and it's quite difficult to do things. It's not because I don't want to, it's just that when I plan, something goes wrong. Like at the moment, my knees are playing up. They're very lose and they have no stability to them at all. It's almost frightening to walk at times, not knowing what my knees are going to do! The good news is my back is slowing improving! It still gives me twinges, which I find incredibly frustrating, but it's getting better! Back pain has to be the second worst thing in the world (after side-effects from diet pills, but I'll save the explanation of that!)

Obviously, as I've not updated for a while, not a lot has happened. I went to see my counsellor on Monday, who gave me a long talk on mind and body connectivity. Apparently, my feeling of being trapped/in the wrong body is one that I can overcome mentally by positive thinking and listening to what my body is saying. I can't listen to what it doesn't tell me! He also seems to think that recognising negative thoughts and putting them to one side is a really bad thing. I'm not sure why, but maybe it's because they can bottle up and come at once? I don't know!

I've also been playing lots of Dragon Age: Origins on the PS3. I started a new character, a human noble rogue (irony?) and I've done the tedious parts, Kokari Wilds, Redcliffe, Circle of Magi (god, I can't stand the Fade quests!) and now I have the meatier parts left, which is most of the DLC, character side quests, and the 'better' quests (Denerim, Orzammar, etc) I left Dragon Age today, and I dabbled in a bit of Crackdown 2, which I really didn't enjoy. It's like Infamous, but without the polish, the fun. I didn't feel 'awesome' I was constantly aware not to hurt civilians or peacekeepers, which meant I couldn't just rampage. Tomorrow it's business as usual and back to Dragon Age I think!

I've also borrowed a lot of DVDs off Harry, the entire Avatar: Legend of Aang/The Last Airbender set (all 3 series), just to wash the feeling out of my head that I want to see the M. Night Shyamalan movie. If I see it, I'll only end up disappointed and hating myself. I also refer to it as "the M. Night Shyamalan movie" as it really doesn't deserve to be linked to that great series. Even though the series is a children's cartoon, there's just something about it that's brilliant. It shows struggle and growth in quite an amazing way.

Myriam's 22nd birthday was last Sunday and her dad wasn't impressed that I didn't give her any presents. He seems to find any excuse to belittle me to Myriam and he only does it to upset her. I have got her presents, I've got her some little things and a new ring to replace the one that has cracked (much, much better quality and should last a lot longer) and I told her they'd be late. I know Myriam herself doesn't mind, it's just her dad that annoys me!

Tomorrow evening I'm attempting to go out for the first time in a while. I don't really care for the film I'm going to see (inception), but I want to go out and see some friends. I'll be going with Harry and Nikolas, rather than my usual crowd. This will be an adventure, as I don't think I've been out with Nik on a cinema excursion! Hopefully they'll be mindful of my extra needs (I know Haz will) but I think I worry for nothing. It's scary how much I need to trust who I'm with now, I hate relying on other people.

Well, that's it for this post, it's nearly 3am and I'm watching a repeat of Have I Got News For You on Dave. Now it's time for my rant post!